Felt Spontaneous

So, I was watching LA Ink and I had this huge urge to either get something pierced or get a tattoo. Well, obviously the latter is a huge impossibility right now, so I asked my sister to come back down from college to go get my cartilage pierced. That was another slight impossibility considering the hurricane coming and the fact that it is better to stay northwest right now.

So what was I to do? Both options were out. Or were they?

 

I figured I could to the whole Lindsay Lohan/Parent Trap thing, but…

  1. I didn’t have a lighter or any source for fire that my parents couldn’t tell I had.
  2. I’m too big of a wimp to even have something burning near me.
  3. And you’re really gullible if you even thought that I would even think of that.

The other option was tattooing. Well, that is possible. There’s a method that you could do that one of my middle school, “hard-core”, soccer friends told me about. The ice and salt tattoo. You see what happens is that you get some salt and make a shape, then press some ice on it. It’s supposedly really cool afterwards…if you do it right. It happens that I did do it right. Just there’s some unwanted additions.

So all that burning pain for nothing. The star kind of looks cool if you hold your hand around the extra parts. But I still got that rush of “this is going to be so freaking cool and badass”… in a high schooler kind of way. So when I go to the beach and people ask about it, I have two options to say. 1) ”Oh, it was a tattoo that went wrong.” (Probably not the one I would want to say without embarrassing myself.) 2) “It’s a burn scar.” Now that sounds badass.

Kat Von D is just the epitome of awesome.

I know it’ll heal, and I will probably/maybe not do it again (unless I somehow get better at it). Or I might just get a real one when I’m older…? But I still don’t know what I would get.

 

Haley.

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I’ve been meaning to post something on this topic.

No,  it’s not the whole ‘I’m a Senior!’ post or an ‘Extended Essay is Finished’ sort of thing, nor is it about the earthquake in Virginia; those were left for Facebook statuses, my lovely readers. I have come to discuss a subject that is extremely dear to me, and I would love to share it with you:

Harry Potter.

Whether you care or not, I’m going to tell you a little story.

Once upon a time, right between the Shenadoah Valley, there lived a little girl who loved to read and play imaginary role-playing games with her Barbies and Power Ranger action figures. She would spend hours and hours playing all alone in the basement of her house, creating made-up stories of marriage and drama with her toys and the toys of her little brother. At some points, she would even insert herself into the story, always being the one who mentored the hero/heroine of her tales with whatever they were troubled with. One day, her older sister, who went to college in the big New York City, came home for the summer.

Every night, the older sister would tuck in the little girl, her younger brother, and read a book until the two drifted off to sleep. This was the little girl’s favorite part of the day, for her sister was an astounding actress, and would make the characters come to life by giving them crazy voices and unique personalities. One night, her sister began a new book that she had just began to read herself; it was about a  lonely boy who was discovers he’s  a wizard, goes to a magical boarding school in Scotland, and meets two best friends he would have for the rest of his life.

Not only was this little girl completely enthralled with the story, but she was positive that this fantastical world of witches, wizards, goblins who ran banks and a sport played on brooms was real, and needed to be found immediately. She read the rest of the books over the following years. She would act like a student at Hogwarts, best friends to the Hermione Granger and a master of charms and flying. She would make her little brother hold two of her favorite dog plushies and act like the three-headed dog Fluffy, who guarded the sorcerer’s stone.

Well, when this little girl turned 11, and she did not receive the letter saying she would be heading to Hogwarts for the rest of her schooling, she was devastated. Of course, now, this girl (young lady, even) still can’t imagine her life without Potter, Granger, and the huge Weasley clan. Heck, even Malfoy. This girl went to every midnight book release, would pre-buy the book, read the book in a day, and would tell her mother every detail she could remember until she passed out asleep.

For this girl, little ‘ole me, the movies were a bonus. Sure I had my own imagination that created images of Voldemort, the Boy Who Lived, and Dobby, but to see them on screen and to be able to recognize everybody: it was an amazing feeling. When the books were all said and done, I knew I had the movies to look forward to, even if the Potter Era was coming to an end. As we got closer to Harry’s final year at Hogwarts, the amount of crying in each movie raised gradually.

Who knew that at the final movie, I would sob like a baby in my movie seat.

Harry Potter was more than just a book. It was the memory of my older sister reading to me, the pure bliss of my imaginations, and the very being of my childhood. I don’t really remember a time when Harry Potter wasn’t around in my life. It’s like a computer, a T.V., and maybe even Apple products?

Mr. Potter became someone that I could relate to during the darkest parts of my life, and even gave me the motivation to always do my best and have faith.  Now that this movement is completely over, it is truly a blessing I hope to share with my own family when I’m older.

Thank you, J.K. Rowling. Not only have your books changed my life, but I’m sure they’ve brought so much happiness to others all over the world. We need more creative people like you in this world.

What a wonderful world it would be, huh?

Brown Bear

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I am such a feminist.

 

After writing about fairy tales and how they reflect societal views of both men and women, I have concluded that men are pigs. Just to put it in the nicest way possible…

Men perceive women as always being the damsel in distress, the object of torture and corruption, and even the reward of life. Make up your mind! If women are so horrible, then how can their beauty be one of destruction and fulfillment?! How can they lead men to do the most rewarding tasks yet send them to their death? Also, why are women the ones that are always punished for having the beauty or just having strength in general?

There isn’t a fairytale where “tall, dark and handsome” is silenced or killed because of his beauty. The little mermaid, Thumbelina, the ballerina in The Steadfast Tin Soldier, Gerda in The Snow Queen all are punished in some way because of either their beauty or rebelliousness against the ‘norm’. Their punishment is cutting off their tongue, being domesticated, marrying into a family not of their liking, or usually killed…ultimately becoming a pile of coal. Why?! Why can’t there be a woman who overcomes the trials and transformations seen in common fairy tales, wins her true love, and then actually lives?! Only little Gerda is the one that lives and gets her ‘happily ever after’, but only AFTER she is punished multiple times by men AND women. (Again women are the torturous ones!)

Prince Charming, it's your fault too!

I should have done my essay on only women and how they are misunderstood and mistreated in the literal world. There is barely anything on men and their mistreatment. Oh whoopy, he came from rags to riches and got the girl. What about the woman left outside in the pigsty?!

Woman is the snake charmer of man. I’m pretty sure it goes both ways Mr. Prince Charming.

 

Eagle. Dumb fairy tales.

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Love

Every time I listen to Adele, I always feel like her songs are calling me. My own heart has felt the same emotions as she has, and it is as if the lyrics continue to regurgitate old memories and feelings that usually stay dormant and only slightly creep up on you in times of loneliness (or, for some, in times of love).

To me, this is the reason why she is so popular and personable. She speaks of  her breakups and unrequited love, her blessings, her mistakes, and even her secrets. The thing is, as humans, we put our own experiences into the music. Sure, I’ve never really felt a breakup, but I think trying to get over somebody is in the same realm, right? So, I put that memory in my brain whenever I belt out “Rolling in the Deep” or “Set Fire to the Rain” in the car. And, you know, it helps. It really does.

I could probably rant on and on about this amazing woman, but I won’t. I’m sure you feel the same way. In fact, I’m leaving this here, just so you can feel it too.

 

 

 

See, he was moved by it too. Will you let it move you too?

Madiera

(excuse my silly thoughts)

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Yes, I am procrastinating.

I should be working on my Extended Essay that’s due in two weeks. I should probably be working on the rest of my summer assignments as well, but I’m not. I’ve noticed that these past couple of days have been quite a struggle; I’ve had too many things on my mind lately, especially with college applications looming in the background, to really finish anything. Usually when I’m under this amount of ‘stress’, I  break down and pitch a fit about how lousy my life is at the moment, which is completely untrue. Although, as a girl, I seem to use that as my excuse 5o% of the time. Yeah, I said it; I have no shame.

Not that I didn’t believe it before, but I really am understanding the whole “Nobody’s perfect” line that almost every wide-eyed girl (or boy, for that matter) uses while talking about her love woes with her/his best friend. I mean, we all believe it to some extent, yet some (including myself) still strive to be the perfection they wish to be, knowing well enough that whole idea is awful in the very sense of being human. But as I sit and write these ridiculous lines in to this small part of the Internet I call our blog, I’ve really come to terms with this sort of idea. There’s no reason for me to be pushing myself to the limits, simply to fit into a little bubble that will never, ever exist. Heck, I’m sure I would be completely annoyed with myself if I had all that I ever wanted or lived up to the highest expectations I could legally come up with, not really considering the state of my life at the moment.  Not that high expectations aren’t bad, but to be able to fulfill them without a challenge? That would be absolutely boring and underproductive.

Instead, I should be living life in a way that makes me happy. So, procrastination station is where I’m at right now, and I am completely okay with it.  In fact, now that I’ve kind of accepted my habit, it makes me want to work even more.  Of course, who knows at this point.  5 minutes ago, I was having a hard time choosing between eating either a banana or a peach. Life decisions are tough.

 

 

 

 

 

I obviously picked the peach, duh.

 

 

 

Brown Bear

 

 

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Flyin’ High and Mighty

It’s scary right now to think that next year is my last year of high school and that after that…it’s life. Actual, hard-hitting life. I’m excited don’t get me the wrong way! But leaving the nest has never really occurred to me yet.

Lately, I’ve been applying to jobs (hopefully at Target!!!) and that kind of made me realize. Soon, I’ll have a full on career after college and living my life… Living in the big city, being the director of the Metropolitan Museum of Art, and living the single life! Or maybe just the National Museum of Art. Won’t need to come back home by 11. Won’t need to call to say where I am. Won’t need to ask for money. I’ll finally be independent! And that, as fun and exciting as it sounds, is one of the most frightening moments. Even though I’m more excited than scared!

Honestly, I can’t wait for college. I think I’ll be fine (and I think Gov. School has helped me out with that one!) I’m ready, I’m ready, I’M READY! I want to meet so many new people and experience new things that I haven’t had the chance to do! Anything that college throws at me, I want to do it without any doubt in my mind! Just live life to the fullest!

 

Eagle. College can come right on in.

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I am absolutely horrible at goodbyes.

Well, more like crying in public. I’m usually one who can hold in emotions, but when it comes to saying goodbye to people, especially family, I’m a huge mess.

My sister Sarah and her boyfriend (a.k.a. future brother-in-law PLEASE) visited us for a couple of days this past week and left Thursday. Hunter and I had to see them off by ourselves since mom had to work, which didn’t make things any easier. At first, as they headed towards the door, I thought I had made it without getting too emotional at all. Until I started actually thinking about them leaving. As I hugged Sarah goodbye, I was holding back tears that I definitely didn’t want her to see, silently praying that she wouldn’t notice my teary eyes and breathy speech. Well, she did. And I ended up crying my eyes out behind our front door as they went on their way.

The same sort of situation happened at Governor’s School, when we were saying goodbye to lifetime-long friends that you weren’t sure you’d ever see again. As soon as I got into the car, I silently cried to myself while my mom and brother carted me back to the Beach.

I don’t want you to get the wrong idea; I’m not a cry baby. In fact, I cry rarely. I think the real issue is my emotional involvement. Like my mom always says, I wear my heart on my sleeve; I tend to get really emotional about things I truly care about.  And what’s more emotional than saying goodbye? There are thousands of songs, letters, movie scenes which convey the turmoil human nature faces as people, experiences, or feelings disappear or go away. Hopefully, this is merely a long-lasting symptom of puberty that will simmer down like a pot of my mom’s spaghetti. Until then, I’ll try to save my tears for the dark rooms of the movie theater and my room.

On happier news, YAY for an actual post on this thing. My writer’s block was horrible and I lost all needs for patience, but I promise to try and post  more often.

Peace,  mah dawgs.

mmm sexy.

Hahahah. Brown Bear

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